You're hurt, you cry, you bleed, you develop wounds, they heal but there's one specific wound that never heals no matter the treatment it undergoes . Maybe it pretends to heal and skin covers it but immediately anything touches it, it bleeds like a fresh wound. Nothing stops it from bleeding.
Dear dad....
I wrote all these in remembrance of you. I have always wanted to write this but every time I put down a paper and take a pen my emotions overflow me. It's been sixteen years since you left me but the memories are fresh like yesterday....
They say memories of first love never cease and I can't agree more coz every thought of you hurts me. I have tried to forget how painful your departure was but it can't just go. You were everything I ever needed in my life : a friend, a lover, a teacher, a protector, a provider, a leader, a king... If only these titles could return you back to me......
You were the first person who ever called me princess and henceforth I believed I was one. Every time anyone calls me that it breaks my heart. It's not like my heart is not yet broken but the pieces break more. I loved you and still do. I believed in your words like that was all I needed to survive but soon you were no more. If only you could stay longer to take me through these....
Anyway, wherever you are, always have it in mind that I miss you and will still love you. I wish you were here to see me succeed. I wish you were here to see your prophesy come true. Yes, I found him: the man you always teased me about. At that time we knew not of him but today he's here. I remember you laughing over it as I frown. Today he makes me smile but whenever I remember that you are not here to see him, I breakdown. The scars still bleed.
I wish you were here to see me succeed. To smile and encourage me, to celebrate with me, but you are nowhere close to the places I know. It hurts me so much. It's so hard to grow out of this....
Pens fall, tears.
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