Shadows of Deja Vu

In the quiet corners of my restless mind,

Dark thoughts whisper, their echoes unkind.

A familiar dread, like a recurring dream,

Patterns of the past, or so it would seem.

Shadows dance, in the twilight of thought,

Battling the light, with fears they've brought.

Is this deja vu, or just my mind's fray,

Questioning reality, day after day?

The same old worries, 

circle and swoop,

In an endless loop,

 they seem to regroup.

Am I overthinking, 

or is history's page,

Turning once more,

 to the very same stage?

Yet in this struggle,

 where darkness collides,

A glimmer of hope,

 persistently abides.

For even if patterns

 are set to replay,

I'll face them anew,

 come what may.

So let the night fall, 

let the thoughts fight,

I'll stand my ground,

 I'll seek the light.

With each new dawn,

 I'll find my way,

Through shadows of deja vu, 

into the day.

~Atieno ❤️

Love will find a way...

Because it always does...

Love will find a way

The heart knows to love 

Bruised but scared of love 

But still,love will find a way

Shutters and banters of boom!

Of a heart afraid of bloom

Scared and looking for gloom

Love will find a way...

A heart that knows a lot

Having experienced a lot

And out learnt a lot

Still too scared of a lot 

But love will find a way

Trying to love again

Afraid to be hurt again

But daring to face the gain 

Hoping to, this time gain

And build a forever, maybe?

Love will find a way

Across the miles away 

In the silence of space,

Connected by a windy web

Through the echo of uncertainty, 

And whispers of affection,

 Promising calm to calm the wave 

Love will find a way

When distance dissolves, 

In the quiet moments,

 when you're far from view,

Feeling the gentle tug 

Of my heartstrings to you

Through challenges vast,

 And heavy skies of gray,

Hope is our compass a day

That love will find a way.

Two souls entwined

 In the dance of the stars,

Bound by a bond 

That distance never mars.

Through every fear,

Come what may,

In the warmth of our embrace, 

Beating all the odds 

To make impossibility a possibility 

Because love will find a way

So let the world spin, 

let the cold winds blow,

Our hearts keep the time,

 steady and slow

For as long as we cherish,

 As long as we stay,

In the light of our journey,

Willing to try again and again

Fighting for all we aim

Building a story we deserve 

A forever full of bliss 

Love will find a way

         ~Atieno ❤️

In the quiet before dawn,

 where fears often tread,

I harbored my heart, 

where it silently bled.

Scared to surrender,

 to let it depart,

For love's sweet poison,

 might just stop its art.

But then came the whispers, 

like wind through the trees,

Your words, they fluttered,

 set my soul at ease.

The butterflies stirred,

 in my stomach they danced,

Against all my fears, 

I took that chance.

It's the purest of love,

 a rare, flawless gem,

So perfect, so real,

 in a world of pretence.

A dream, perhaps,

 too vivid to deny,

Or a toxic elixir, 

meant to make me die?

Yet here I stand, 

in love's tender snare,

Breathing in the essence

 of a bond so rare.

What if it's a dream?

 Let me slumber deep,

For in these sweet visions,

 your heart I'll keep.

But should this be a drug,

 a slow, toxic kill,

I'll savor each moment,

 each passionate thrill.

For even if love 

is destined to slay,

I'll embrace its demise,

 come what may.

Love will kill me again,

 with its bittersweet pain,

But in every death, 

I'm reborn in your name.

So let it strike,

 let it tear me apart,

For each end with you, 

is a beautiful start.

     -Atieno ❤️

The alleged killing of LQBTQ activist Edwin Kiprotich alias Chiloba has ignited so much light on LQBTQ and intimate partner abuse amongst Kenyans and the world.  Even though police are still doing more investigations on the murder, Kenyans especially the youth have been left with a lot to discuss especially on the morality lane of whether being a lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender and queer is moral or not. With the highest number standing on it being immoral, a big number has also argued on why sexual arrangements should not even be a discussion citing more serious issues of humanity and what should be sin with religion held constant.

With all this going on, I've noticed quite a number of youths now claiming that three-quarter of the world population is bisexual. My major concern however is, are they really bi-sexuals or just bi-curious? Cultivation analysis theory claims that people oftenly tend to behave like what they often see especially on TV and with the shading of light on LQBTQ around the world including on movies, I'd argue that most of the people who claim to be bisexual are not. They are just bi-curious. 

Google defines by curious as heterosexuals who are curious to know how it feels to be homosexuals and if this doesn't make much sense, I really don't know what else does. Most of the youths are not bisexual, actually to be even more accurate, a bigger number doesn't know which sexuality they fall on, the curiousity is just making it worse. Instead of fighting to fit in and trying to remain relevant, adult youths should do more research on sexuality without exploring what really is and what's not because to be honest, being bi-curious is very different from being bisexual.

"I don't like pressure!" 

"You demand for so much"

"I don't like girls who ask for so much"

We all agree that we've heard or said these terms atleast once, haven't we? Let's come to think of it, are girls asking for so much or the other gender is just not willing to do what they are supposed to do? Like let's just be honest, should girls go silent when they fail to get the bare minimum from men who claim to love them?

A girl asking for a gift on her birthday is not demanding. She deserves it and no matter how broke you are, you have a whole 365 days to prepare. Save bro, no girl will get mad because you bought her a gift worth 500/= or even less. 

A girl asking for a date is not really demanding, you're supposed to. Take her on a date. Even if you agree on splitting bills, a girl deserves dates. Doesn't matter where you're going. Do the minimum, even if it means a house date...

Your girl getting mad because you didn't buy her a flower on Valentine's day is so called for. Like look bro, it's Valentine's, she's your girl. Where else do you want her to get the feeling of appreciation? Flowers are as cheap as from 45/-, get her one bro, it's the bare minimum. 

The worst breed of guys are ones who assume they forgot your anniversary so as to not appreciate the far you've come from, tf bro? You forgot a whole anniversary? How? A whole growth process? A whole 365 days of being together? People even break up after 2 days? Come on...

It's time men do the bare minimum without girls asking for it. If you love her, show her. Tell her you love her, gift her, help her do chores, touch her, write notes to her... Impressing a girl is not that hard as y'all make it look like. No girl wants to date someone and feel like she's with her brother. We have brothers for reasons, we may look like cows in their sight, we may fight most of the time but at the end of the day, they appreciate us too, lol😂. Do what you need to do and as a girl too, bring something to the table, don't just demand if you're not giving too. A receiving hand also needs to be a giving hand .

@mimi_bree254
    2021

We all agree that Moi uni is one of the best universities in this country when it comes to education but did you know that apart from education there are a lot of worthwhile experiences you might get yourself into before leaving? While some of these experiences are thrilling, some are extremely draining. Here are a list of things you should do before leaving Moi uni as a student:

1. Go for a date in a Megabytes and take fries with chicken and a soda

Are you even in Moi university if you have never been taken for a date at Megabytes? Since town is quite expensive for most campus boys, Megabytes is the ultimate savior. Try it out with a campus guy, lol.

2. Go to F2

Whether for a drink or a dance or just to watch a game, the experience is a thrill especially when you are heartbroken. Get the other side of life, hatukujudge.

3. Go to Musese and eat "number 3"

If you are in your final year but had never gone to Musese like me, you are a cool kid. It's time we try this kibandaski out because the stories about it are tantalizing.

4. Go for picnic at falls with a crush

Most of us will agree that falls is a nice place to take a crush for concrete answers. The purity of the nature around the place just makes it easy for someone to speak out their mind or even pour out his/her heart.

5. Get heartbroken by someone who practices at MU fm

Though not all of them are heartbreakers, MU fm boys and girls (especially boys) are known for being the smartest cheats. They will love you and make you start searching for names of your future kids only to come and hit your heart with a hammer, lol.

6. Go for picnic at kesses dam.

Though most of these picnics are usually student organizational, a few are personal and the experience is worth it. Try it out before you leave.

7. Eat 20,000 chapatis and 10 acres of sukima wiki and 15,000 avocados

Are you even in Moi university if chapati is not your favourite snack and ugali with sukuma wiki sandwiched on avocado is not your daily meal? Need I say more, sukuma wiki, avocado, ugali and chapati define us.

8. Put on crocs with ankle socks to class

Though this applies to mostly junior students, there are a few seniors who still put on crocs with ankle socks to class. This experience is worth it especially on rainy and muddy days but once you are a third year, dress like an adult.

9.Go for picnic and have soda with nuvita biscuits for lunch

Even though students go to different picnic sites around campus, it is common to have nuvita biscuits with soda. It's culture, don't question, just follow along.

10. Own a pair of crocs, fur slippers or fila shoes or all of them

It is in the unwritten laws of being a lady comrade from Moi, you either follow suit or follow suit.

What are the other common things in Moi university?

I might be acting all cool and af with friendships but don't come to my house. See, you might have known me in the past as a social butterfly but what if things changed? What if quarantine changed me ? Or let's reason this way, what if whoever you know outside there is a completely different person to the one you'd meet indoors? Don't come to my house!

Don't get me wrong, it's not like I dislike visitors but what if I'm butt naked with a pair of socks and mask? Would you expect me to dress up just because you're coming to my house? Honestly it's so tiresome dressing up to go out and dressing in to be indoors so if you don't have to, please don't come to my house.

Don't come to my house because I don't live like you. I take cold corn meal with overnight beef stew in the morning and later do snacks at mid day. How will you survive if you come because I'm honestly not taking bread and milk as my first meal? To add it all, I make my corn meal with a mixture of millet and cassava. What will you eat if you decide to disobey my quest and come? With all honesty, I'm not changing my lifestyle for someone who can't stay at his place so please don't come to my house.

Don't come to my house because I listen to one paroga nyasuba all day. What if you love mixing bongo, riddims, blues and reggae? What if you just wanna listen to a well arranged playlist and move from one genre to another? What if you don't love people singing along to music and you'd rather Concentrate on the tunes than the distraction of singing along?  I'll disrespectfully ignore your existence and shake my waist as I sing and do my chores so please stay at your place and don't come to my house.

Listen, I pray straight two hours with worship songs along and sometimes I just wanna be quiet and have no one talk to me. What happens when you come to my house and you wanna watch a movie at my praying time? Are you going to listen to me pray for two hours straight or are you going to stay at your place because heck! You are not gonna listen to me having my private talks with God. Please don't come to my house.

Don't come to my house because I talk to myself a lot. What if you think I'm possessed and go tell everyone that? Look, I'm used to having a meeting with a committee of me, myself and I daily and sometimes we rekon the past and break into loud laughter. What if you get scared or in worst case scenario think that I'm laughing at you? For the sake of your peace, don't come to my house.

Don't come to my house because some nights I skip meals. It's not because I'm intermittent fasting or saving money but there are days when I'm just too tired to cook or not in the mood of eating any food no matter how good it is. What if you're not used to that and you starve to death? For the sake of your own life, don't come to my house.

There are days I don't wanna talk to anyone or have anybody breathe my air. What if I'm in one of those days? Will you carry your own oxygen in a container because you chose to not stay at your place or what will you do? Listen, I know that's hard so please don't come to my house.

What if you come to my house and I don't feel like sharing my meals with you? Look, sometimes I live on a budget and I'm not ready to spend more and sharing the little on my budget is a no too. What are you gonna do? Carry your own food from your place? Because we can all cook,stay at your place and don't come to my house!

Lastly, I invite the people I want to my space, if you don't get an invite from me stay at your place and if you have to see me, plan a date and invite me over. I like meet ups when I'm free, not just at my place so plan one and if you can't, please don't come to my house.

@Mimi_Bree254

#bleedingpen

   2021